Good morning, 🍋drops.

I've been quiet, I know. I've been getting the house together, trying to make room for a nursery. The birth mother I've been talking to these last few months decided yesterday she didn't want to wait until next week to bring baby to me. She explained he was running low on formula and she was afraid she would end up not being able to afford his food bc she's already struggling to get it. I did have formula delivered to her last week. I am not about to hand out money, but I sure will buy a baby formula if he needs it.

Anyway, she had a friend help her with gas money and he left yesterday morning to make the 12 hour trek here to VA. She's dropped me pins along the way to let me know where they are and that they're okay. She got a little lost in KY last night, getting off the interstate to take a break from driving and feed the baby. By this time it was pretty late so I asked her to stop for the night and get some sleep. She should be finishing the drive today. She's about 4.5 hours away now.

My husband didn't want to take in an infant. He wanted a child around our kids' ages (3 and 4) but I told him that would be a lot on me. And I fell in love with this little boy the second I saw him. Plus, he's only 3 months old, so I'll get to see all of his firsts! And, he'll only know us vs being confused at toddler age as to why his parents are suddenly gone.

My stepdad is worried she won't show. I wasn't worried but he did put doubts in my head. The girl hasn't asked me for any money, so I don't feel as though I'm being scammed. What would be her purpose in lying if she hasn't asked for anything?

My mom is overly unhappy with our decision to have another baby or child to take care of, but I'm not sure how it affects her to the point of her being angry over it. I hope that changes once he's here bc I don't ever want him to feel like he's anything but ours. I would take in as many children as I could fit in my house if my husband allowed me to. Taking care of kids is all I've ever known -- since I was 12 years old, so 33 years. I didn't get to be a kid bc I was too busy doing my mom's job when I was young: cooking, cleaning, and taking care of my siblings. I found my purpose and it is being a mother so the kids could be kids and enjoy their childhood.

I'm very nervous to meet my new son. I'm also very impatient to hold him in my arms. And I'm terrified now that she won't show and I've gotten my hopes up for nothing.

In the meantime, I'm up. I've been enjoying my coffee in peace. My princess is up and probably ready for breakfast, so I'm going to start cooking for her. Gotta make my bed, work on laundry, straighten up anything out of place, clean the princess' room (again!) and wait............................

Oh Lord, please let her show up today with our new son. This is a dream come true and I'm anxious to hold him. Lord, I pray they have a safe rest of their journey. Please provide a hedge of protection around them and help her get him to me today. In Jesus' Holy name I pray, Amen.