First heartbreak at 21 ❤️‍🩹

Never expecting this day to come...

Met him when I was 18 and now that I'm 21 years old and I've spent my entire youth with him, it felt so surreal looking back how we ended our relationship mutually on the 3rd Oct despite loving e/o strongly ❤️‍🩹

For basic context, he's 5 years older than me and we've been together for nearly 3 years 🥹

Not going into details as to what happened but it really hurts so badly thinking that for my entire youth I've been working hard trying to earn 💰 for BTO, thinking that he's the only one that will walk into the next chapter of life with me and yet fate made a joke on me 🤡

What I've learnt through this 💔 is definitely to always communicate with your partner and talk things out no matter what, and indeed even though we tried, things still didn't work out 🥲

I've been trying to lead the relationship because he's not the one who will initiate talks and honestly after speaking to my friends about what happened, it may be right that his attachment style might be fearful avoidant and it's tiring for the both of us especially we both really tried to always find a solution after each fight but yet each time there's no improvement 🥹

Still trying to navigate through this and as much as I try my best to not think about it, it really 💔 how he's my first bf and I really fought hard for our future to try to minimise the differences in our age difference 🥲

I've been consistently working my part time job on top of my school commitments no matter how much I hated it in order to earn the CPF fund 🥹 But at the end, only to realised that I'm the only one fighting for our future because he's priority is at the moment and I'm looking forward to the future 🥲

My friends would always describe us as the stable and loving couple 💔 Now that I'm back to single, I felt so empty fighting alone realising that I'm only left with myself ❤️‍🩹

I have zero hate on him and only wish the best for him to find a partner that will love him as much as I do and provide him ample comfort at all times 🥹🤍

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