end of a friendship

hello zesties! 🍋

previously, i mentioned about me ending a friendship. it was actually with someone that i held very dear to my heart and i felt like she wouldve been someone i could definitely count on through anything. we had been there for each other through ups and downs and she could come to me for anything and i’d be there, vice versa.

lets name her 🤎. i had met 🤎 through church. i rejoined my church and 🤎 was the first person i met once i rejoined and had warmly welcomed me with open arms. i knew instantly that we’d click.

🤎 and i were the same age, in the same poly and also had very similar interests. we grew closer with time and also because of gaming (we gamed together pretty often)

🤎 also introduced me to her group of gaming friends that were also very welcoming hehe

🤎 had started internship around the same time as i did so naturally, i’d understand how 🤎 would feel whenever 🤎 told me that she felt tired or drained. thus, 🤎 started missing church more often. we drifted for a bit because of this but once internship had ended, we started gaming more and talking more and also going out more so the bond grew back again.

we got super close 2023 and 🤎 had even sent me off when i went on my graduation trip with one of my secondary school friends!

the friendship remained close through out and i had always thought we’d be friends throughout life and i’d have found one of my best mates. 🤎 was someone i wanted as my bridesmate when i got married.

however, at the end of june 2024 was when things took a big turn. 🤎 had started uni while i was working fulltime. 🤎 was constantly tired and was pretty bad at replying messages (which i didnt mind much as i understood how it feels to be burnt out). 🤎 always make excuses whenever i tried asking her out or would just not reply till it was too late and we’d reschedule.

then in july, 🤎 completely stopped replying me entirely, leaving me on read. i was completely shocked and in utter confusion. nothing had led to this, there wasnt anything that had happened either. then i found out that 🤎 had also hid her story from me on ig.

i had tried my best to reach out to no avail so i just stopped. for a moment, i was angry, then confused. why would she do this? had i done something wrong? why wouldnt she just talk to me?

then i realised it was taking a toll on me, mentally and emotionally. i realised this friendship had been one sided for awhile, with only me putting in the effort. i had done what i could to fight and preserve this friendship but it made me realise, no matter what i do or how hard i tried, if it isnt reciprocated, it wouldnt work out so i just left it.

i dont reach out anymore and have since removed her from my ig as well. it took a huge weight off my shoulders. it definitely hurt for a little while and i do miss the friendship every now and then but, at the end of the day, it just didnt work out. i just wish she’d have come talk to me instead of just leaving me in the dark.

i’ve come to terms with the end of this friendship and that it was for the better.

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