I Broke No Contact

well I’m not lying to you, I did. And I don’t regret it. Did it end the way I had hoped it would when I had sent the text? No not at all; but it had been a month of being me and understanding me and growing myself. So when I’m the last week I was no longer more okay than I ever expected when we parted ways, I couldn’t hold myself from just speaking on the feelings I felt. He didn’t want to get back together in anyway, and I think I came to the realization I don’t either. But there was less animosity after we spoke. I don’t feel like an asshole for going to the gym we both belong to. Or grabbing a drink at the local pub that he unfortunately works at. We aren’t strangers who pretend we never spent days together, who know every inch of each others bodies. And who knows what the future holds for either of us. But we are okay with what we are now. #breakup #nocontact #exboyfriend #healing