Bridesmaidzilla Fall Out 01.2: I gave in

To respond to ❤️‍🔥, I took an entire day to draft another long message. I was really angry. But I didn’t want to end the friendship, because I truly cherish her as a friend. It has been 20 years of friendship. She is my longest friend ever, and I was still hoping she can calm down and understand me later on.

I read ❤️‍🔥's messages again and again, just right before I wanted to send out my long message, I concluded that from her message it doesn’t seem like she wants to be out of my bridesmaid squad because of that “Is okay, I cancel everything just make sure your wedding is the smoothest”. So I gave this friendship another shot.

(My initial draft wanted to uninvite her as my bridesmaid, and let her be just a normal guest.)

I apologised to ❤️‍🔥 and her husband even thought I felt that her displeasure doesn’t make sense to me – But since she told me felt that way, I acknowledge that and I think it can be valid if I am in her shoes hence I apologised. I really REALLY hoped that she can put herself in my shoes and do the same.

To be honest, I wanted very much to reply her,"With so much anger that is uncalled for, I hereby dismiss you from the bridesmaid duties that you volunteered for. You may go now."

When ❤️‍🔥 replied me after me giving in, I only looked at the notifications so I didn’t see the entire message. I thought she apologised to me as well and we can move on with our friendship.

It was until I open up WhatsApp and read her replies repeatedly then I realised – BITCH DIDN’T THINK SHE WAS WRONG AT ALL.

It felt like,”Oh now that you apologise to me already, I shall be the bigger person to forgive you.” Wahkao, I really read her message many times then I noticed that there was never an intention to apologise. Her messages were all about her.

❤️‍🔥 says I spoke to her in a demanding tone – WHERE AND HOW WAS I DEMANDING?

❤️‍🔥 says all she wanted was for me to enjoy the process – BUT SHE IS THE ONE MAKING IT SO BAD.

❤️‍🔥 says I could have spoken to her better – LIKE HOW? KOWTOW TO HER AND LICK HER TOES?

❤️‍🔥 says she pangseh someone else’s wedding just to go out with me (honestly I didn’t see this sentence until I read her message many times) – BUT NO SHE DIDN’T.

❤️‍🔥 then proceeded to show me a gift she got for my wedding, and telling me how much she loves me as a friend and my BFF.

I replied to her with a normal mindset (other than feeling a little upset that I needed to give in to her), because I didn't notice how much hidden bullshit and manipulation was in her messages.

I sent 🧚🏻‍♀️ these screenshots and she spotted another loophole,”She say you princess because she is the queen. You only can be princess.” LOL so funny but OMG WHY DOES THIS MAKE SO MUCH SENSE?

At the end of everything, ❤️‍🔥 still emphasize her complain about 🧚🏻‍♀️.

After I read our conversation for the 5th time and realising how manipulative she is (and of course how naïve I was), I felt really grossed out by her.

I was supposed to go to her house the following day, but I decided to lie by telling her I need to accompany my boyfriend and his groomsmen go shopping for their outfit around 4.30pm, so I cannot go to her house.

She probably felt that I was lying, hence her being very inactive on Instagram, she was online and watching all my IG stories just to ensure that I really went out to do shopping with the guys.

I feel like I was being emotional abused by a crazy bitch who is supposed to be helpful to me on my wedding day. It turns out this woman is the toughest part of my wedding planning.

That day, I decided to really cut her away, but after my wedding.

Few days later, ❤️‍🔥 texted me to meet up for dinner before our bridesmaids group meet up that has been postponed. Then, she asked me when am I free to go her house or meet for dinner.

I didn't reply all these messages at all because I felt very uncomfortable interacting with her. Just imagining myself being in the same space as her makes me nauseous.

Girl, you can't treat your friends like shit and still have the friendship. All these years, many close friends left you... I thought you'd treasure me more. But I guess not.

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