Confessions of a NICU mama

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1. Having a baby at 35 weeks pregnant was the most traumatic thing I have ever been through, even though labor was easy, the thought that my body decided it was time kills me in the inside.

2. Leaving my baby everyday to take care of my kids at home is heartbreaking. I cry everyday and no one understands. The guilt that I get to leave the hospital and my baby has to stay breaks my heart.

3. The medical teams seem so unhelpful and make things even more confusing. I know nothing is linear but the constant changes beyond annoy me and I feel like my baby is not being set up for success.

4. There is a chance that my entire maternity leave is going to be spent in the NICU. I should be bonding with my baby in the comfort of my home.

5. I feel like I annoy my support system with the constant crying and anxieties about leaving my baby at the NICU.