Trying new food this week to destress

Hello!

I have been using food as my coping mechanism whenever I am stress or feeling down. (Unhealthy I know, please don’t nag at me already, I have people in my life nag at me 😒) Unfortunately, this is my poison, one way to keep me going is to try new food! Out of all poison/addiction, honestly I think food perhaps is the least sinful uh in my opinion ☠️👻

Most of the people are addicted to smoking/drinking/druugs/p0rrn0graphy/s3x/social media/status/recognition/work and many other more to list down..

So I would consider food to be least sinful. Okay I need to stop justifying myself 😅

Apparently there is a revamp of VivoCity b2, new food to try! Super love Thai food! So decided to try this store “Talad Thai Banana”, sweet potato balls! I think the price is value for money uh! Even though gotta wait for at least 15 mins or so because it takes some time to fry the balls, to me it is worth the wait! I really like how crispy it is on the outside and inside it is super chewy! I told myself this is a better alternative to drinking bubble tea lol, coz it is made of sweet potato 🙄 ya it is still fried food so unhealthy ya, but at least I can chew on it 🫠

$6 for 10 balls, and if you add a Thai milk tea, it will be $3, else Ala carte is $4! I like the Thai milk tea too! I can taste the tea flavour and not too sweet! Quite authentic in my opinion! It is consider very affordable because if today you have Thai milk tea at restaurant it will be at least $5-$7

Okay I did try the French American Bakery’s hot chocolate with marshmallow fluff $8.20, honestly it was quite disappointing for me, not sure is it because ang mo Lang prefer thicker consistency of the hot chocolate where I am used to drinking Singapore’s hot chocolate which is lighter

The chocolate does have a slightly bitter taste which is fine if it is not too thick, the fluff is way too sweet for me, feel like I am eating sugar literally. It looks good but not to my liking unfortunately. I didn’t finish the drink lol.. sigh if I continue to drink I think I will get diabetes

The pistachio croissant looks good but the pastry is super cold and not flaky at all, 🤢 the cream I can’t even really taste pistachio 🥴 $8 just wasted 🙄

I guess that’s the risk of trying new food, I will take it as I am buying experiences hehe to make myself feel better.

There is another store which is opened by one of my favourite Singaporean chef lennard! The store name Har Har Chicken! It is the famous har cheong gai flavour! Will try it with my sis! I told my sis that I wish to explore good food with her hehe it makes me happy to share food with people I love!

I can’t wait to try more new food after 8 of Nov, I would take the time to explore many other food that I have always been wanting to try but didn’t had energy to travel so far out because of my very little energy left on the weekend 😭

Today I took grab back home, usually I don’t even take grab unless coming back home from my sis place (all the way from east to west), makes sense to take grab as compared to take public transport for 2 hours 😒 time versus energy versus money

The reason why I took grab home because I realised I was so exhausted dealing with that emotionally unstable passive aggressive boss, I lost count of how many times I had to apologise for things that I shouldn’t even be apologising for. I realised her nitpicking is driving me nuts. To the point that I almost cry lei, how crazy this is?

In my heart, I was like “what do you want from me? I am already serving notice period, can’t you just give me a f*cking break?”

You see as a self employed previously, I have seen all kinds of people day in day out, had to deal with a couple of nasty human beings as well, but this is the first time my body feels so unsafe that I can feel my whole body is in “freeze” mode.

I have tried to reduce interaction with her by making sure our communication is through email to keep things professional and neutral because honestly I can’t deal with her never ending roller coaster emotions 🙄

Luckily I have my two buddies at work that gives me support, and give me some courage to face this monster lol. They are so upset that I am leaving 🥲 they said “sigh 少了一个战友” (one less comrade)

Anyw 14 more working days to go. I can do this, I can do this. I will survive this monster 🙌🏻 加油 me.

Sometimes I think it is a curse to be INFJ, as much as I don’t wish to categories myself to personality type but I genuinely feel that I could resonate so much of myself to the description of INFJ. It almost feel like this world is made for “S” people who focus more on material world (based on my personal experiences ya, not all “S” people are like this), sometimes it is really exhausting to overthink and feel so much, constantly being affected by people’s emotions. Sometimes I wish I am S/T, then perhaps life would be so much easier. Not sure uh maybe S and T people also have their own difficulties in life too. But I realised S/T people tend to do very “well” in life, at least they seem to be la. Maybe they suffer too I guess.

我是真的很累，很累 🥲

so I told my friend that I really dislike this version of myself, I became a toxic version of myself while trying to survive this toxic boss, I feel so disgusted by myself that I resort to gossip, ranting, and having negative energy. I miss the version of myself where I don’t even have time to gossip, where I could focus on what truly matters, which is how we can improve, how we can build ideas and future, what can we learn etc the truth is when you are truly busy and doing things that are fulfilling, you wouldn’t even have time to gossip. You will be surrounded by supportive positive people 🥲

At least now I am helping myself by moving away from this toxic environment and find myself again.

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