how exactly do i go about being an nsgf?😭

i've read a few posts on being an nsgf prior becoming one and when i see them going thru a hard time, i was so resilient on not dating an nsf but ig fate had other plans for me😗

📌here are a few reasons why i thought this way:

‼️love language

my love language is physical touch and i really couldn't imagine only seeing my s/o once per wk bc ik it wld drive me bonkers

‼️time

personally i enjoy my alone time but along w my love language i absolutely cannot forgo time with my s/o

🔅moving on to my actual reason for this post : its so hard to be an nsgf😭 as someone who has never been in an rs bfr i expect way too much thanks to all the tiktoks i've scrolled by and kdramas i chanced upon. and w my bf being an nsf, this j means lesser time for him to be ✨the ideal bf that i created in my head✨

i admit that i hv a rly toxic mindset regarding this and i promised to throw that away at the start of the rs, but part of me kept wanting what others have, which is clearly not possible bc every rs works differently.

now how does ns come into play with this, you might ask, and the answer is time. with ns, i barely have time to see my bf let alone communicate IN PERSON with him so that easily leads to miscomm and conflicts. i'm grateful that we've never escalated to an argument. nonetheless, i'm thankful to have such an understanding s/o and does all he can to accommodate me.

i rly hated the way i was with how i acted wanting every expectation met that i overlooked how much effort my s/o was putting into the rs despite his duties alr tiring him out. i sometimes also expected him to know what i was thinking which was absurd to say the least💀 i was srsly thinking abt wht exactly triggered this in me and it was partly to do with texting. i realised when he didn't text back almost immediately, i started to get anxious (which is soooo toxic and till this day i dnt unds why i thought that way). like literally he wld be doing his duties and the intrusive toxic thoughts strike me👎👎

oftentimes i would also overthink on things that shouldn't even cross my mind bc that j shows that i dnt trust my s/o enough and i hated that. but no matter how hard i tried to stop myself from overthinking it j becomes worse😭

through these mths i've been with him i realised that i should be more understanding, trusting and content with what i have now :` i've grown to be a more patient and accomodating s/o through these mths and i also learnt a lot (mb a bit too much) abt myself

i'm still trying my best to navigate on how to go about being an nsgf😀 it definitely was difficult since many things were unfamiliar to me at the start, but here's hoping i'll become a better partner + person :`

altho its gonna be another gruelling 8mths+ to his ord, i hope that he knows that i'll always be by his side🫶

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