Changed myself in the best way 🤍

Hello Lemonees 🍋

How are you guys?

Have you ever felt there was a moment in your life that you just want to throw everything that you hated about yourself and turn over a new leaf?

Yup thats what happened to me.

🍉Short Storytime

- 5 years ago, I’m a plus size woman in her 20’s, single, lonely and was just diagnosed with severe depression.

- Everyday was a struggle. There was a time that I wanted to die everyday. I didn’t feel life was worth living anymore.

- It was to a point that got me almost admitted but my psychiatrist gave me a chance to practice some self-love.

- Hard few years because my depression is a high-functioning depression (dysthymia) I look okay , bright and happy on the outside but I want to die everyday.

- The thing with High functioning depression, you look normal, you still can work and study, but your feelings are just flat. My downtimes are the worst times.

🍃A Good Change

- First thing to improve myself : Acknowledging that its a problem.

- 2nd: Find solutions!

🍉 Went to psychiatrist for meds and therapy to seek help

🍉Look into things that can make life happier. (Money, stable income, self-worth)

🍉 Totally cut off people that made me feel worthless. Being a people pleaser means you want to accommodate to someone’s feeling too much.

🍉 Practice grounding and self love

✨The Me Now✨

🍃Its still a struggle but I’m happier

🍃I look forward to life now. I look forward to enjoy everything that is in everyday.

🍃I don’t necessarily need a man to make happy. My self worth is in myself and not how others perceive me

🍃Living a healthier lifestyle. Try to change myself to become better.

🍃Going with the flow 🤍

Change is never an easy thing. Its scary. It will take a toll on you. It can break you and make you feel so vulnerable. But whats more important? Is how you see yourself at the end of the day. The harshest critiques are always ourselves. The best is to make sure you’re content with yourself and only then love will come to you as naturally ✨🤍🤍

May you find your own happiness ✨

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