I will never get my teenage body back

and that's ok.

I grew up relatively skinny, but somehow, I was always compared with my peers and called chubby when standing next to them. But I never worried about the food I ate and would even be proud that i was a big eater.

As I grew into my late teens, I naturally gained more weight because of the amount of food I was eating and the lack of exercise. By my early twenties, I started to compare my body to how it used to look in secondary school. At that point, I would look back and think, "I used to be slim and had thighs like chopsticks. Why am i so fat now?". Come to think of it, i always felt like i was fat or overweight compared to my peers. I never felt good about my body even when it looked like my skinniest.

One day, I woke up, and it hit me. One day in the future, i will look back at my photos from today and think "omg i looked so good. Why did i ever feel like i was fat?". I started to appreciate my body for how I look at that point onwards.

Our bodies are growing with us. I started to take care of my body. Feed it with food it needs and exercise not to lose weight but to build muscle and keep my body healthy.

I will never get my teenage body back, and that's ok. Because I'm not a teen anymore, I'm a woman.

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