My Nightmare Breakup Story

When I ended my last long term relationship before my husband, my body absolutely told me that it was time for the relationship to end. He would visit me in college and I would be so anxious about spending time alone with him that I would bring friends along on every outing. I felt weirded out kissing him or hugging him and I always wanted to cross my arms/huddle up around him. I felt a physical, body reaction to him that was almost like an aversion.

But that didn’t make the breakup any easier, it just delayed the pain. Sure, the first thing I felt when I broke up with him was relief, but within a couple months the relief turned into a living nightmare.

First of all, he was so upset that he dropped out of college. He would cyberbully me, spread rumors to all of our friends that I cheated (100% false), and even slandered me to my parents. He would show up at my parents’ home with boxes of stuff from our relationship when I wasn’t home and film himself dumping boxes on their porch for social media. He even tried to convince my parents to stop paying for my college, claiming I was a druggie…also false.

Then the worst thing happened… he apologized and begged for a second chance. After a month of pursuing me heavily, he convinced me to give him another chance. The second I decided I wanted him again, he called me a wh***, blocked me, and told everyone I was crazy and begging for him back. I was humiliated and heartbroken. I entered a really deep state of depression.

I would lie if I said it was easy to overcome this. The pain he caused me took YEARS to overcome. For a while I regretted breaking up with him because I thought that was the root of all my heart break. The reality is, I would never want a man who was so quick to cancel me, slander me, and manipulate me to be my lifelong partner and the father of my future kids. I am so glad I went through this pain because it taught me to recover, to pull myself out of the pit of depression and heartache, and to be extremely picky with my choice in a husband. If it weren’t for this horrible experience, I would have never met Taylor!

If you’re going through heartache, I feel you and I’m here for you. You WILL come out on the other side but the only way is to go through it. Keep your standards high and refuse to have a victim mentality. You’ve got this!

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