i’m fat and sad

from ages 12-18 i was between 99-110 lbs. a big part of that was an eating disorder i had since 15 and another part was just having a kid body. now being 19 and having recovered from anorexia, i’ve gained much more weight and have a more grown body but it’s made me so depressed. i feel so fat. my boobs, butt, stomach, and face are huge and i hate it. i would never turn back to bad habits but i just don’t feel good about myself anymore. i wish i had better pictures but i only wear big baggy t shirts or a hoodie. i miss wearing crop tops and being able to walk around naked in my own house but im so insecure even when im by myself :(