Stop settling for less and date the nice guy

I didn’t graduate fully and so my lover paid for me to take lessons on all subjects to prepare me for my GED with a 800 something dollar computer that he also got me, I also had insomnia and back pain for years on the same twin sized bed for a long time, so he not only got me a new queen sized bed with a new frame but a new comforter and pink covers for it w new pillows. He then took me on a date to the new Beetle Juice movie cus I told him about the first movie that I loved since I was a kid. That’s just the tip of the iceberg that everybody sees. The things he buys me and they think that’s it. He’s pulled me out of depression and has healed me and every thing he’s ever done for me he did without asking. I never thought I’d meet a guy like that and obviously we aren’t perfect, I’m not perfect in fact I was really toxic. I pushed him away, insulted him so he could leave me alone, I would smoke and drink and blame my past for everything but he never gave up on me, he always showed up to my house even when I blocked him or threaten to call the cops on him to leave me alone and he’d come threw my window and bring me food, open up my curtains and physically pull me out of bed to work out or go on runs with him or he’d try to encourage me to go to Vallarta that’s like an 8 minute walk down my street to try and convince me to get snacks with him just to see what snacks I’d like. Sometimes I’d tell him to not follow me and he’d follow me anyway to the store and pay for my stuff at self check out with his card. I’d tell him how there’s jobs I really want but I don’t have a GED that would help me get said jobs because he technically has two but with money from said jobs he’d buy me things I would’ve never asked for. He was never mean when I’d push him away or reject the idea of us he would just be there for me and he never took advantage of me even at my lowest. He’d talk about God with me knowing I love God but I was just having a bad year due to family problems and overall even after the breakups and the arguments that I would start for literally no reason I wanted to make us work. I try not to lean on him even though I never really did but him willfully helping me with an open hand he was my knight in shining armor the way Jesus is the worlds knight in shining armor. He said God put him on my path and me on his and that I brought him closer to God during the time I was doing okay in life and when things fell hard on me he was there. Basically what I learned and want to share from all this is date the man of God, he ended up proposing to me awhile ago and I said yes and I’m not saying it’s happily ever after because like I said we still aren’t perfect we are humans but with God in our lives who can stop us.