God broke my heart so I could be whole again 🪽💕

💭“What nonsense is this?”

💭“What kind of God would bear to break someone this badly?”

💭“Here we go again, another Christian trying to turn something ugly to beautiful for people to convert” 🙄😒

I’ve seen & heard of similar stories before and each time i come across such topics, instead of feeling happy I always had negative thoughts like the ones above.

Only when I experienced it myself then I understood how those people felt and now’s my turn to share it with you~

🩵Long story short, I was in a blessed and happy relationship for 4 years (P.s, we even got a BTO together) Yes, even though we have our quarrels and arguments but I always thought that maybe this is it. This is what God was preparing me for my whole life. Everything felt just right most of the time. Until when my partner decided that he wants to break up and eventually called off the proposal which he had already planned for .

It left me utterly broken and yes.. I blamed God for it. Since everyone says that God already knows how our life is gonna be like, why did He allow this to happen? He’s unfair! 😣

My friends were there with me almost 24/7, comforting me but none of the words really helped me. I felt helpless and also shameful because I knew I was taking up everyone’s time and causing them to be worried for me. That was when I decided that maybe I should just go back to church and listen to what God has to say to me.

During that service, many things started coming to my mind. The scene where Simon was told to walk on water, dropping into the sea when he panicked and Jesus reaching out to him to grab him came to my mind suddenly. Coincidentally, during that service, our guest Pastor Dale C. Bronner, shared this exact same verse and his sharings from that day have always been on my mind ever since that day (August 2023).

If only Simon continued to trust God and stayed calm, he would have successfully walked on water towards Jesus. But the moment he started having doubts, that is where we will drown in our own thoughts. It felt as if God was telling me to continue trusting him and that no matter what we are going through with, He will always reach out to us to save us.

Ever since then, I’ve started attending church more regularly and have eventually placed my full trust in Him. This of course wasn’t an easy journey for me either, there were days where I really wanted to give up and stop going back completely but I’m glad that I didnt 🩷

I’m still learning everyday on how we can place our trust in God when things don’t go our way and this is what gave me peace at the end of every challenge which I’m facing, be it at work or just in life generally.

If not for the brokenness which I’ve felt, I probably wouldn’t be who i am today. I probably won’t learn about forgiveness and most definitely wont know how to love again.

Dont get me wrong, I still struggle with my own personal issues but that’s for another day for me to share. Hehe 🤭 I am for sure at a happier state now too 🥰🩷

if you’ve read till here, I pray that you will feel at ease knowing that everything will get better and that one day it will be your turn sharing about your journey while healing.

#Christianity #Heartbroken #testimony #BeReal #healingjourney

💕Dress from Lovito @ Shopee