Help me have a “married woman” glow up!

This is my twist on the glow up trend on Lemon8 right now. I am 20 and just got engaged a couple months ago! I know I am still young, but I’ve always been told I am mature for my age.

I feel like the same young girl I was in highschool, but now with great responsibilities. I’m not only having a hard time adjusting, but have very much lost touch of my soft girly side.

I’ve noticed over the past couple years, that I have become much more argumentative, passive aggressive, and have a bad attitude more often. I have lost the side of me that used to be submissive and soft but not nieve. I’m more masculine than i’d like to be and would like some insight on how to feel feminine again.

I’ve always had a hard time dressing myself, doing my own makeup, having “feminine” type hygiene routines, and learning how to present myself, but my current state is making it much harder.

I would LOVE any criticism, tips, and/or suggestions on how to go from a girl to a true woman (especially one of God). Also, any tips on marriage would be greatly appreciated! 🫶🏼💋