⭐️ proud of myself ⭐️

it’s been one month (and 3 days 😉) since i quit cannabis for good and oh my god, what a month!

the first 2 weeks were absolute hell, no joke.

the 15th day was the first day i felt hungry enough for more than one meal and a few snacks, but now i’m constantly hungry 😂 it was also around this time that my sleep became more normal- no more constant insomnia and my daily naps went from 4-5 hours to about 2-3 hours! unfortunately even though my sleep is more regulated, the DREAMS!! 😳 they are so freaking intense, still, to the point where i need to start writing them down and selling them for action movie inspo!

you aren’t supposed to see yourself die in your dreams right?? well tell that to my overactive brain because it’s making me watch myself croak 20x a night, along with all my family and friends as we fight to survive the most horrific, realistic, apocalyptic scenarios 🥲 i’m definitely tired of dreaming lol

also isn’t 26 old enough to not have horrific teenage acne?? my body image has been tanking because of it and it’s starting to really stress me out! luckily this morning my skin is the clearest it’s been in a hot minute, and i didn’t want to scream when i opened up my camera app. i’ll take the dreams over the acne any day tbh

i’ve also been having a tough time dealing with what appears to be healthy weight gain. my disordered thoughts have been making recent appearances, and i’ve had to do a lot of inner work to keep them at bay! it’s kinda funny, because at the same time i feel like i’m sexier than ever (imo, minus the acne 🙄), so my stupid brain really just needs to shut the fuck up 😂

another funny thing- my neighbor is constantly lighting up (no judgement obviously), and the smell of it is actually super gross to me now?? which is so awesome to think about, i was worried i was going to start craving it if i was constantly smelling it, but honestly it’s been a helpful turnoff!

i’m so excited to see what month two brings! so far i’m feeling really good about my decision to quit and i’m excited to stick with it 🖤

(also i don’t have an insta with this @ i just loved the canva template 🙈 my actual insta is @ emilem47 but i only ever really post on my story!)

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