My Partner Suffers From Stage 4 Depression

I'm not sure if all of you know about this but yes I do have a long distance partner and he was diagnosed with stage 4 depression, also means that he has a very strong s*icidal ideation due to his childhood. I believe there are still people who have thoughts be like: "oh you're saying a crazy person" or "this person won't do good to you". Well before you judge everything hear me out.

𝐈𝐭 𝐫𝐞𝐪𝐮𝐢𝐫𝐞𝐬 𝐚 𝐥𝐨𝐭 𝐨𝐟 𝐌𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐚𝐥 𝐒𝐭𝐫𝐞𝐧𝐠𝐭𝐡

I can't say that I am that strong mentally as I also suffer with mental health issues, but that's how we actually met. We both actually start chatting because we both are standing on the same page, have strong ideations. That leads him to get attracted to me somehow don't ask me how but ask him lol. Throughout the whole relationship I can say it's extremely tiring and mental draining, I would be lying if I say sometimes I am annoyed by him because of his mental health is controlling him.

𝐓𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐛𝐞 𝐀 𝐋𝐎𝐓 𝐌𝐎𝐑𝐄 𝐅𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭𝐬

Fights and arguments are normal in a relationship, but in this case it can be excessive fights that happened due to the lack of understandings. I remember having fights that lasted almost a month because of some misunderstandings and it's very draining to be in a constant fight like this. We both struggle a lot with our mental health, I grow up in a strict family while he was in an abusive family which is why lot of times he's very sensitive to things.

𝐘𝐨𝐮 𝐧𝐞𝐞𝐝 𝐀 𝐋𝐎𝐓 𝐨𝐟 𝐏𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞

It's like communicating with a baby, you need to have a lot of patience with his anxiety and over thinking. I find mySelf having to repeat the same word over and over again for multiple times in an hour especially when talking to his insecurities. It's very tiring and it can get frustrated because of the amount of affirmations u need to give him. And it was these little things that build up that could bring me so close to explode mentally (which that already happened a few times but we both ended up coming back together and he understands it. 

If you don't have the ability to handle the top three things, this relationship wouldn't last long honestly, compromisation is needed, and also communicate with patience. Honestly I must admit there were times it got so bad that I have the urge to break up, but coming to think of it, he has his own qualities in a partner (which I will talk about next time) and there's a quote I really like in one of Frozen's song that goes "people make bad choices if they're mad or sad or stress". I'm a person who made stupid decisions when I'm in a bad mood so yeah :D

Alright that's all from me see you next post!!! XD

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