The beautiful woman with many names;poem

⚠️TW: themes of blood, body dysmorphia, and eating disorders⚠️

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The beautiful woman with many names:

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She’s back

She’s back and full of more envy and rage than ever before and I wonder why

When I was 16, I wrote a letter telling her to leave me alone

But I hear her whispers once again,

The scarlet red blood dripping down the dagger as she twist it into my back

Maybe I forgot to lock the door

Maybe a window was left cracked open and now I cannot un-hear her voice

Tears running down my face trying to make this plate

When I finally tell someone I feel like it is too late

It is already consuming me whole and I cannot escape

Her voice is like echoes in a chamber

I cannot run or hide or pray it away

This beautiful woman with many names

Olivia, Betty, Ana, it’s all the same

Whether she strikes in the middle of the day or

When I’m laying in bed at night questioning everything

I find myself lying to keep her secret safe

But if I listen for to long it will be a deadly fate

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