I don’t want to be a fat girl again…

Lately my life has turned around for me for the worst. I lost my job about 2 weeks ago and I have completely stopped going to the gym and have just been eating anything in sight. I fear getting as big as I once was. I don’t want to be the biggest person in the room. I don’t want my weight to be the main conversation at every family gathering about how big I’ve gotten. I don’t want to go through any of that again. The answer is so clear and simple. Yet it’s so hard to follow especially during hard times. The last thing I care about rn is my health. I want to find a job that pays me or at least something close to what I made before. I want to keep my house and not stress about how to keep up with mortgage and bills. I want to have weight loss surgery next year and I’m currently starting to apply to nursing schools. I have so much going on so many deadlines to meet it’s so hard rn. I have been applying to so many jobs but I haven’t heard anything back. I’ve been doordashing in the meantime but it doesn’t help with my food cravings and staying away from fast food.

This is the bad and the ugly which is part of life unfortunately, I know I have to keep pushing and that it’s only a rough patch and I’ll get through it. I just can’t wait to see the light at the end of the tunnel and get out of this mess that I’m in.

Lmk if you guys know of any remote jobs or anything jobs hiring in the DFW area! Thank you 💗

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