Mental Health Battles

#lemon8diary A constant battle that I am proud to say that I have nearly overcame is

my ✨mental health✨ while being a college athlete

From trying to be perfect to forcing myself to be this intimidating, scary, and unapproachable person, I began to lose WHO I WAS!

I had been raised in the LDS church but left when I moved out for college. I swore off religion entirely because of the way it effected my childhood.

I then got into drugs and alcohol my freshman year. I didn’t really see an issue with it because I was starting as a freshman as well as getting decent grades.

When spring semester of that year came, I realized I had a serious problem. I had gotten hurt which took me out of practices and took away my only escape from my head.

I barely left my room. I had no friends. And I didn’t go home to see family.

My teammates saw what I was going through silently and sent me an invite to a women’s conference for Newspring Church.

I thought it was the stupidest thing I had ever heard of. BUUUUUUT, I was told there was karaoke and free food, so I was interested.

I attended and learned that it was OK to admit when you aren’t ok. And that there was one person that had been through EVERYTHING I had gone through. Tbh that never really sank in from my childhood in the church.

Ever since then, I started attending that church regularly, then the following semester, I got the job as their Spanish translator!

And now, 3 years after, in my senior year of college, I thank those since graduated teammates for making me go.

I am 8 months sober.

I got baptized this past week.

And I don’t flaunt it because it’s more personal to me, which I thought was a requirement once u became religious 😂

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