1st Deployment

I haven’t posted on here much but I don’t feel like have much of a village to make me feel better.

All to say that my fiance has officially left for deployment a few days ago, and I am just struggling to see the light at the end. I know it’s very new right now and I will adapt. We’ve done long distance before but this feels different. Before I had roommates and now I’m by myself in our house and it’s just so quiet and daunting. I feel like I don’t have much to complain about as I’m lucky enough to own a house with someone who loves me and I have all the things I need to live and have a good time, I live at the beach for goodness sakes. So I just feel on the edge. I’m fine during the day for the most part but going to sleep is the hardest. I procrastinate it everytime. I don’t have many friends where we live so I just feel so small and like the world is so big and I’m alone. I have two dogs and without them I would be a wreck. I know I can be independent and it’s not the end of the world and he will come back before I know it, its just the realization that I’m alone with no one I feel comfortable enough to call to come give me a hug when I need it.

I know this is all over the place but I hope someone reads this and doesn’t feel so alone anymore.

We got this. We will come out of this stronger. And I’m ready to grow and see where life takes me in the next six months.