What Healing looks like after a broken heart ❤️‍🩹

The vows “i__, take thee,___ to be my wedded wife/husband, to have & to hold from this day forward, for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness & in health, to love & to cherish, till death do us part…”

As someone who is not very religious but I do go church every few weeks when I can, I hold these words so close to my heart. Saying those vows at the time felt so significant & important that I know, I had to keep its promises. But it takes 2 hands to clap.

When someone asks me “so how’s the married life?”. Quite frankly, it irks me & I really do not know how to answer it. I know others means well when asking me but truly, married life is not easy. It comes with so much considerations & responsibility.

We just celebrated our wedding anniversary. We went overseas & took that time consciously to get to know each other again. It may sound weird to some but it was what we needed to really spend time tgt. As you know, travelling takes a lot of planning & all the logistics so it really is a team effort kind of thing. We’re just taking baby steps each day. For those who read my first post, a few of you have asked how has it been by now. Well, we are a work in progress. I think moving on while still being together is the hardest part. You can’t truly say you’ve forgotten everything because every once in a while, you’d burst with emotions & all the effort you both seem to put feels as if it’s crashing down. I can say, though, that moving on takes a lot of love & respect for each other regardless of who is in the wrong or right. at this point, I’m really learning to love again. At the same time, I haven’t forgotten about loving myself the most. I guess, this is what healing is to me for now - to trust the process & to be kind to myself.

Also, on a side note, I’ve been planning to start a new project for fun & for myself. Been feeling pretty jaded & uninspired. I’m also planning to post more here in future - a more ‘happy’ & hopefully, useful & informative content. I really feel like my life is starting over again at thirty (turning 31 in Nov 😖) . I’ve got so many things that I want to do but I’m filled with so much anxiety to even start that I procrastinate.