He broke up with me 🥺

The thing is , is that I had always been there for him even when he was in the hospital . I lost my grandpa my grandpa even died in front of me I couldn’t even do anything bc I didn’t know what to do. and I let him come in my life to heal me, and now this is what I get in return a break up . I want to die soo bad but ik how much evb else love me I hate everyone and everything Rii now he really broke me and I will never see him how I did before he promised me stuff he told me he would never leave me but since I’m so young and dumb I believe him and got attached to him too fast I threw life away for him so I could focus on him more and now I barely have anybody when ppl said or did things too him I was by his side I was protecting him when he felt like giving up I was there for him WHEN HE WAS SICK I WAS THERE FOR HIM 24/7. I was ALWAYS THERE for him he doesn’t deserve to be on earth anymore bc I am not the first girl he has hurt and I won’t be the last .he told me if we break up he would never date again but boys usually only break up with u when they find somebody else. Last night we played games we laughed together but little did I know that would be our last night tg I have to delete thousands of messages and everything else. Think before u make the move .🥺😔