Getting good results doesn't mean anything

Hihi, I just wanted to share my experiences and hope people would gain more confidence etc!

I'm Jes and here's my story!

⚠️TRIGGER warning btw

I am just a normal girl from a neighbourhood pri sch, had been having tuition since P1-P6 though I thought it wasn't exactly necessary (like for subjects I was good at) It was q crazy bc I nvr had a weekend free before

My eng and science was shit though 😂 because my parents dont speak eng at all so I've alw been struggling w eng

My mum is those typical strict asian mom, so I rarely hung out in pri sch -> so all my time goes to studying (I enjoyed it tbh)

So of course I did ok for PSLE, 246 + 3

So I went to an "elite" sec sch, like it's not too bad but not like very good too, above avg I would say. But thats when shit started to go down.

Of course, I think it is just normal bc like it's an "elite" school, for the first 2 years my avg score is like 60 for every subj (which I honestly thought is not bad alr..) bc w that, I am already like the avg in that school, and w that I can obviously get about L1R5 11-15 for Os and get into a JC

But of course, my mum wasn't happy, and there were bullying when I got into sec 3 :) and my teachers :) they only cared about their own record and kept asking me to drop a certain subject bc they said "all the students I've taught will at least get a B, please don't ruin my record"

I do not care about your record :) But at that point of time I was truly affected so I dropped it (they pressured me everyday)

Things went downhill real quick, with all these pressure from the teachers and my parents and the bullying, I became su!c!dal. Until one day I almost did it, my parents finally took it seriously (they thought I was bu!!sh!tting)

Of course, I did not study for O levels (30mins before exam if that counts 😂). I got into poly through EAE though. I didn't score THAT bad.. but still quite bad 😂 L1R5 23 I think

If you asked me, I would say I truly regret it, going to that school, dropping that subject. But only thanks to that, I grew so much these few years.

In pri sch, I was SUPER ARROGANT, the type that would think others are stupid and look down on them (I don't tell them directly though, I would even help them but I'd think that to myself)

Is it Karma? Maybe, but I never ever bullied anyone though.

Now, I think character matters more, I've seen so much and I can assure you results means nothing. There are people who scored 180 for PSLE and are in NTU right now. There are people who only have a N level cert and is earning 6 figures a month. You might start slow, but that doesn't mean the end. Take your time, find your own pace.

Nothing can define you except yourself. Please, do not get pressured by the environment and believe in yourself, I will too.

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