recovering from ed

TW ‼️: ED

i started hitting rock bottom at the end of 2021, i was actually really healthy, nothing close to overweight. long story short, i was really insecure as my partner of that time (now my ex) was admiring other women such as celebs, kpop idols etc. i really wanted to be the woman of his dreams that it affected me both mentally & physically.

you can call me crazy, i can't be arsed. personally, i wouldn't like my partner checking out other women. why? logic, respect. i wouldn't do the same. this toxic mentality of watching 🌽 or having fantasies of other women is so normalized that barely anyone understands where i'm coming from. which is also why, i don't care about anyone disagreeing with me!

i went from 52kg to 3*kg (not mentioning for safety purposes). it took a really short time to even lose that much weight. i didn't even take any slimming supplements. i was always either always very tired or too energetic during this moment.

i've stopped my bad habits since late 2022 as i decided that, i really should take good care of myself. so from 2022 till now, i've gained a total of 8kg! it took a pretty long time, but progress is still progress.

2-3 months back before holidays, i started hitting the gym with my bestfriend! i mostly train on my 🍑, legs & back. as for arms, it's a little difficult for me. i'm born with skinny arms. even with the weight gain, none of it went to my arms 🥲

sidetrack, your body will tell you that your partner's not the one for you! a few months back i broke up with someone as the relationship was causing me too much stress aside from my studies. the stress was too much, i ended up being diagnosed with alopecia areata. i lost 95% of my eyebrows, i also lost a little of my hair. thankfully, it's not too serious and i'm still getting it checked out! a story to tell for another day 🤷🏽‍♀️

i can't be one to tell anyone what to do with their lives. everyone makes mistakes, and that's okay! learn from them. if you're also struggling with ed, you can always find me! also, i'm so much happier now. i think that's all that matters.

i hope my story inspires people and i hope you guys read this with an open mind. i really appreciate that. see you guys in my next post 👍🏽