Grin and bear it. ❤️

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While writing this, I just let it flow because this subject has touched a nerve for me and has caused pain in the past …

So I’ve shared this before and I don’t mind sharing this again because I know how our psychological mindset is tied to our smile and today’s beauty standards.

That might sound strange, but if you have bad genetics and always had bad teeth, I’m sure you’ve heard plenty of nasty things said to you. Especially the men …they say the worst things you have no idea. I mean, if I’m honest it can really fuck with your head. Are we allowed to say fuck?

I’ve had people think that I was a smoker and I absolutely hate cigarettes. I’ve had people accuse me that I did drugs. I even had a guy asked me if I was in a car accident. Mostly people tell you ..they don’t ask you and that’s the worst part.

Well a couple years ago during Covid time I found out I have short and long roots and that’s a genetic thing that is passed down from your parents. They were chipped and rotten and extremely nasty. Something that you would see like in a horror movie .

Basically If your roots aren’t healthy, you’re not gonna have healthy teeth. There’s nothing wrong with my gums. They are healthy and pink, but I had terrible roots. I guess it’s sort of like a plant if you think about it.

This year I had all of them ripped out and titanium screws, put all the way around my mouth. 👄 I could have gotten the old school dentures, but I decided to pay for something a little bit more realistic that is permanently in my mouth. So I had the surgery in stages and began the process of reconstruction and getting my smile back.

It’s just not expensive at $50,000. It’s also extremely painful. Yeah, insurance did not cover this . But the price of this is not just financial. It’s also a little bit mental . The weird part is catching yourself in the mirror and seeing that you look like 20 years older than you are once both arches are out. Not to mention nobody could barely understand you when you do try to talk.

It can be very isolating . .. However I am now one month away from being opened up again and having the prosthetics attached permanently. It’s the last step before Absolute completion .

It’s sad that many people will not be able to do this and they have to wait a really long time because you have to save up for it. But life is not fair. I know it could’ve been something else and much worse..

I’m very excited to finally smile with perfectly straight white teeth. I’ve always dreamed about this. I trained myself, not the smile as the surgeon was asking me to force a smile so they can see what would be best when making my new teeth and I couldn’t even do it and I broke down because I had taught myself for so long, not to smile to keep my mouth, quiet and shut

I really look forward to laughing really loud and smiling, really big and I hope others who are going through. This will get the experience tha as well. Just try to stay strong and don’t let people try to play games with you or hurt you. I hope one day it’s way more affordable because I know how painful it is having rotten teeth, both psychologically and physical. If you are ever experiencing anything, would I have written about please come talk if you wanna talk about it I’m always willing to listen and hopefully I can be supportive for you.❤️❤️🙏🙏🕊️✝️💯

I just wanted to let you know you’re not alone and there’s others who understand ❤️