I unintentionally lost weight.

I’m going to preface this by saying, I am grateful for my body and the ability to workout and reach my fitness goals. I am still proud of how far I’ve come on my journey however I am disappointed in myself for allowing myself to slip so far away from my goal this year.

I started my weight gain journey in 2021 at 106 lbs with a goal of being 125 lbs by August 2022. I accomplished my goal because I worked hard and was consistent for a year. Fast forward to now, July 2023, I’ve dropped from 128 lbs in January of this year to 120 lbs.

I’m mainly disappointed in myself for not remaining consistent. If I’m being honest, I got reallyyyy tired. When your goal is to gain weight with a fast metabolism eating becomes a chore. I got to a point where I didn’t even enjoy eating meals anymore because they just turned into counting calories and grams of protein to meet my daily goal.

I’ve had a lot of changes this year with my living situation and my work schedule switching to a graveyard shift. None of those are excuses but I guess I just allowed myself to slip from my goals.

I have experienced a lot of guilt this year each time I get on the scale and I’m down another pound especially because I want to encourage others to reach their fitness goals but when I’m not reaching mine it kind of feels like I’m not qualified to help or inspire others to reach their goals? (Imposter syndrome at its finest LOL)

I say all this to say that fitness influencers are not perfect. We go through slumps and we have our off weeks (or in my case off months 😅) but it doesn’t make us any less worthy of reaching our goals.

If this resonates with you please do not get discouraged if you’ve gotten off track. There’s no limit to the number of times you can start again! Do not beat yourself up for being human! You are worthy at all points in your journey. Don’t be ashamed of starting again because it takes a lot of courage to start in the first place.

I’m going to listen to my own advice and choose to give myself some grace today. Don’t strive for perfection, strive to be 1% better everyday. Sending you all love 🫶🏼

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