My Job From Hell pt.3

***Disclaimer: It has been 4 years since I left this job. I stayed at this job for longer than I needed to because I was not mentally strong enough to leave and I wanted to be accepted. I worked for this Job for 6 months. I’ve gone to therapy to work through this season of my life. People’s names are changed***

🛑Trigger Warning:

Gaslighting

Homophobia

Religious Abuse

Toxic Work Environment

Mentions of Abuse

Death

Bullying

💛I’m writing this so hopefully others can look for the signs of a Toxic Workplace and get out sooner rather than later.💛

Pt.3

📝 In that same first week I found out not only was a replacing “A’s” position I was also replacing “R’s”. I was proud of myself for speaking up and saying that that is not what I signed up for, I was getting more work and losing myself to stress. Somehow “M” agreed and so when “R” left I started looking for other candidates for the job. It took weeks but we did get a candidate and I felt awful after we hired her. “J” was just looking for a job to help her out instead she got bullied and hours cut by “M” simply because she was connecting to customers who shared a liked mind to her. “J” was into spirituality and “M” did not like that and yelled at the “Grown Woman” for sharing that part of herself with others. I kick myself everyday for not speaking up, I feel like I’m just as bad as “M” because I let abuse happen because she had us all scared and turning on one another. At this point “M” and “Zee” were not as close and I was her “favorite” and “Zee” was “a monster who was bringing bad energy to her company because of his sexuality and spirituality” she would cause drama between us all by telling different things to each of us to cause division. “D” and “Sol” we’re kinda able to stay out of it because that had school and I was so happy for them. They didn’t have to be trapped in the crazy world we were in. There were good days when “M” wasn’t there and I got to work with “Sol” and “D”. We would get so much done and have a smooth shift. But when “M” would come in it would get weird like… one time to show us how good a product worked she showed us her Va-jay-jay, didn’t ask just whipped it out. Things continued to get weird but I persisted to want to show how useful I am. So I set up a photo shoot with a local photographer to take some pictures of the products and the team. “M” decided last minute to make it a girls only shoot so “Zee” was excluded and “Sol” didn’t agree with not everyone included so she dropped out of the shoot. We did the shoot at “M’s” house and surprisingly it went smoothly. Now that I think about it I’m sure it was because we had someone else outside of work around us so she didn’t feel comfortable enough to be her usual self. After that I genuinely thought I had made it into her good graces. But I didn’t and the pandemic was just starting to begin.

Pt.3 #toxicworkplace #trauma #narcissist #storytime #abusesurvivor #healingjourney #blackgirl #gaslighting