Identity Crisis 😞

hey y’all. My name is Ashley and I am a young mom of two boys and I moved to Colorado from Texas last year.

I don’t really have friends here yet, so collectively i don’t really have anyone to talk to about my feelings (lol)

So i guess i am going to start using this as a virtual diary in hopes to meet some fellow ladies and hopefully feel less alone.

Before I had kids i was adventurous, i died my hair colors i liked, had all kinds of piercings, went dancing with friends religiously (it brings me sooooooo much joy), id work out 3-5x a week consistently, ate fairly healthy and just really LOVED life.

Since i having kids i moved away from all my friends and family. First to Lubbock, then Rockwall, and now we are in Colorado Springs. I don’t have girl friends, i dot. leave my home, i don’t do things that genuinely make me happy and feel like something other than a wife and mom. I feel like i have lost my spark, my confidence and sometimes my will to live.

Now don’t get me wrong. i absolutely ADORE my children and love them with my whole heart. I would never change my life and i am so so happy they’re my boys. But i just don’t feel like i belong to myself anymore. i’m everything everyone else needs and nothing to myself.

i’m not really sure if this makes sense. and maybe i am alone in this but i just had to get it off my chest. I just miss being happy and doing that’s that fill my cup. I miss my confidence and healthy lifestyle and just all the friends and support i once had. I just hope i get happier and better soon.