Why did I quit Instagram

Hello I'm here to journal 😶

Why did I quit Instagram?

I have always wanted to quit Instagram because I started to use it as a form of distraction to anyone in public, but slowly I realised I've been using it as distractions in my LIFE as well.

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Since I graduated, I unfollowed everyone I knew and it has become such a boring app, only endlessly scrolling, don't even know what I'm looking for or what I'm trying to achieve. Am I looking for inspiration? Looking for news? Just to realise that I am just looking for distractions. It took me awhile to realise this. Everyone in my page is living their best life, even the people who are my age, which shouldn't surprise me because I'm just endlessly scrolling thru Instagram while they try to achieve their amazing goals.

I had a "mid-life" crisis and had a breakdown, trying to figure out who am I, and what am I currently doing for myself.

I had multiple accounts, AND NO IDEA WHY. Why can't I just create a single account where I can share everything about myself? I followed the stupid trend of "spam" accounts, which is actual dumb knowing it doesn't even mean anything. Just for rants and stupid posts.

Slowly, I realised I'm doing this just to put on a face. I wasn't doing this for myself, but just to join in a "trend" or trying to look "relevant". This makes me wonder even more, why? what?

This started to bleed into my life, such as my physical health and my mental health. I would scroll untill late at night which is so bad for my sleep cycle, and bad for my mental health because I even started to overthink and my anxiety started to strike up as what people see me as.

This was too much. At that time I assumed social media might be the problem, so I deleted everything social on my phone and focused on myself.

I might make another post explaining what happened after I deleted Instagram, but that's all I have for today. Ps: I'm so.mich happier and my mind is so much clearer. This post is just a random rant of why I deleted it. If you read this, take this as a sign to delete it too! Do it for your mental health's sake 🫶