“SINGLE FOR LIFE AH”💃

Yes, I’m actually THAT friend whose love life is more complicated than sudoku in expert mode (LOLLL).

Tbh, it’s not that I never enjoyed the moments when I’m attached with someone, it’s just that I always end up finding myself better off alone, by myself.

Honestly, from all the past relationships I had, I am rly grateful for the love and blessings reciprocated. But I have to let go and not be selfish by dragging my partner with me, knowing that our relationship is not what I will prioritise in my life.

I care and emphasise a lot on my own life goals fulfilment and long-term happiness.

I’m a problematic person, it’s actually a ME problem as to why I’m single...

My issues are -

🔈I catch feelings easily, but also lose interest easily.

Say real, it scares me how fast I lose feelings for someone. Idk what’s wrong with me either. Like if they did something that turns me off, no matter how much butterflies they previously gave me, my feelings just get switched off automatically. Like thank you, next.

🔈 I prioritise my solitude over the relationship.

Personal space is super crucial to me, and it’s not that I wouldn’t want to spend more time with my partner, but I really like to be on my own & do my own things. And I can definitely enjoy my alone time when I’m with my partner (physically). Problem is, all of them couldn’t accept it. The idea of doing separate things when we’re together = not spending quality time = not showing love. But to me, sometimes, having the company is all that I need. And no, I don’t want to be your world… Don’t have to revolve everything around me.

🔈 I am not ready to be emotionally burdened.

Relationships are bound with responsibilities. And I guess I’m not ready to shoulder and properly take care of my partner’s one yet. To me, I still feel that as an individual, your sense of security & emotions should lean more towards your own responsibility. Yes, it takes two hands to clap, you can only be secure if your partner gives you security. BUT, to me, being secure is more crucial than your partner having to give you security.

🔈 I like to party, but I also like to pray.

I was once a CLUBBER SIAO, but I don’t club anymore. These days, party for me is more like socialising, going on events etc. Aside from that, having a partner to vibe with and grow spiritually is also smth I wish to experience but haven’t really got a genuine feeling from any of my partner yet.

🔈 I don’t want kids. Marriage scares me.

Yea, kids are terrible. And I’m pretty sure i’ll make a bad parent too, so no. Marriage? Not any better. I mean, I have commitment issues, marriage is a lifetime promise and that’s why I am afraid to settle. Like, who gets married to divorce right? (Don’t count Titus & Cheryl)

Yea, so that’s the end. Either ways, I am so happy to be single again, with no relationship label and endless moments of solitude. HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY 🫶🏻

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