Im so upset.. ☹️ story time

Hey all I’d appreciate your advice if you’re kind enough to offer it.. I met my bio father and two brothers in 2020, my brothers are about same age as me (22) so we’ll just say “W” is 3 months younger (clock it) and tbh long story short it went great meeting them!! So many things made sense and I felt almost complete after meeting/talking severalll times ❤️ We even spent a few holidays together I felt very lucky and special.🥹

However, in 2022 someone took my father’s life and after the funeral my brothers and I didn’t speak for close to 2 years. Everyone deals with grief in their own ways. Plus the older brother is nice to my face, but allegedly does not feel like he owes me love due to the fact that our father cheated on his mother for me to even be born. It’s a lot I know stay with me

pls😅

Fast forward to about a month ago.. I had nobody in town to come check my apt for me and there was an old man knocking on my door, I didn’t feel safe so I asked my mom but she’s an hour away in bed. I felt that my only option was to text “W” bc he’s my brother right that’s what brothers do?? He replied quick and showed up drunk😒 checked around my apt, then immediately wanted to hang out and talk. I let him in and we caught up it was nice but then he wanted to sleep there bc he was so drunk.👎🏼 Something felt off so I tried to make an excuse but it wasn’t good he wasn’t taking no for an answer and ended up sleeping on my floor. Next morning I was nice but finally got him out!

Fast forward again to yesterday getting these texts.. WTF?😭 Sooooo sad and disgusted I had to block him & the new numbers/accounts he made to message me last night. My dad’s not even here to make me feel better about it and I’m at a point where I just want to close the door on this part of my life that didn’t really work out as I had hoped.. I don’t have many friends so just sitting with all these thoughts suck that’s why I’m here. Would you have done the same thing? /:

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