No, girly, this is in no way “normal”.

Alright, where are my fellow Neuro-spicys at?! 🙋🏼‍♀️

I’ve been diagnosed with ADHD since I was a little girl, the autism came along later in life. The only area in my life that it affected (or so I thought!) was school. Easy fix, right? Just decide that school isn’t for you and go another direction as an adult! *cue the maniacal laughter*

Turns out, as I’ve gotten off of hard drugs, school is NOT the only area of my life it affects. Lately, I get so frustrated and so ANGRY when trying to effectively communicate, because I just. Can’t. Do it. I feel so stupid searching for the words that aren’t even there. I can’t hold a conversation while doing literally ANYTHING else. It’s exhausting, it’s embarrassing, and most of all it’s downright debilitating.

I’ve always viewed myself an educated, well-spoken individual. Well, friends, I don’t view myself as that today. I’m currently unmedicated and don’t have a therapist (Medicaid pending FINALLY), and it’s SO HARD to make it through a day without having an actual meltdown. I feel like a toddler that doesn’t know how to properly express herself, so I instead cry, get frustrated, and shut down.

Will someone share their experience with me when it comes to managing unmedicated ADHD and autism? Help is on the way, I will hopefully start being treated sooner rather than later, but what on EARTH do I do in the meantime?!

I’m so sick of multiple meltdowns per day, as I’m sure my husband is as well. I just want to exist, y’all. It’s so hard.

#neurodivergent #neurospicy #adhd #autistic #meltdown #unmedicated #help #embracevulnerability #realLife