Didn’t have the best few months…

Okay back story I used to live in the same building as my ex boyfriend until I moved away with my mom because she wanted to keep me safe, I’m 18 and my mom didn’t want to live 42 miles away from me with no car and just leave me out there by myself. Me and my ex boyfriend started dating in February after we went on a trip to the roller staking rink with our friends and family, that night I helped him and his friend learn how to skate and his mom recorded knowing the outcome of the night. He held my hand in a different way that his friend did his friend held my wrist and he locked fingers with me and I didn’t mind it before it was keeping him steady. After the nice outing we decided to go back home and durning the car ride home he held my hand again, his friend looked and I got a little flustered so I pulled my hand back. The next few days after that we started talking more and getting to know each other until we started dating. Fast forward to For the last four months, my ex boyfriend has been very busy and not paying much attention to me at all and I started to get worried and confused about what was going on because we used to be a very loving and talkative couple. We would text every week about 3 to 4 times a week and call 2 times a week and then it started going down to where I didn’t hear from him in 4 weeks and and 3 weeks at a time. Then I texted him on Instagram to see if he was okay on oct. 4th and he told me he needed to talk to me I told him okay and he told me that he didn’t want to hurt me but he wanted to break up because of the lack of time for me and the relationship feeling dull because of work and school being to much. I told him I understand and it still hurts to leave me but I understand, he asked if we can still be good friends and I said sure, and asked him to keep all the gifts, he told me he wasn’t going to give them away because he likes them and I told him the hood people usually just throw them out when they Break up but we have no bad memories so we should keep them. I love him a lot and I am not the type to let someone go if they didn’t do anything to me. No he didn’t cheat my friends his mom someone who have told me if he did. I have a friend that works with him and a friend that goes to school with him so I know he wasn’t doing anything, he is literally a hard working man and understands when something is wrong, and I respect that. Even though he wants us to be friends, I talked to my human diary today and he told me that he knows me and I will not let him leave like that we might end up getting back together in the future if I really loved him I would stay by his side and understand what he is going through, and I do and I wish that we might get back together soon when he gets his place and when I go to college (he is younger than me by a few months) and I want to see him and the family again because I loved all of them so much they treated me so well even though I couldn’t speak Spanish, and it made me feel welcome and loved by them a lot. There is no moral of the story here just sharing why I haven’t been on here much I was worried about someone I love dearly and if you want to tell me a thought you had I will try to answer or reply to what you have to say.

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