Why I Say No🫶🏻🍻

My daughter changed my life.

I thought fun revolved around alcohol and being the center of drunken attention.

Before my daughter I had been roofied three times.

I was conscious but everything was as if time had slowed down.

It was a fun time though right?

Alcohol was my vice

It made me comfortable enough to be my funny self and I was proud to tell my bar stories.

I drove home drunk on several occasions praying I made it home and didn't get arrested or hurt someone.

I live near the beach so the bar life is always active.

There was one night where I drove home and didn't remember where my car was..it was in the driveway.

There was a night I chugged two bottles of barefoot wine and decided to take a bath and almost drowned.

There was a night in a toxic relationship where I got ran over by a golf cart

Same relationship- took a side by side out to the hunting camp my boyfriend at the time was so whiskey drunk I almost flew out the side. In return for him to be black out and tell me what a POS I was.

I had no fear

I was untouchable until I wasn't.

I was vulnerable and usable.

I had no limit

I was the girl who could chug vodka like water

My drink of choice at the bar would be first thing a shot of Jager and a miller light.

Over and over throughout the evening.

I once was at a dirt pit and lost my phone and I dove into a shallow mud hole to save it.

I scraped the entire right side of my body. My friend at the time wouldn't let me in the car with red clay so I started walking home. Eventually they convinced me to take my clothes off and get in the car.(it was all girls)

I got alcohol poisoning during Mardi Gras had to drive an hour home and that next day worked out in the heat vomiting all day.

How I didn't die on several occasions is just amazing to me.

I was the life of the party though I didn't want to stop.

Then the day came when I found out I was pregnant and there wasn't a hesitation for me to put the alcohol down.

I lost a lot of friends because I choose to say no to alcohol now.

Some that are still here get it.

I am a mom and I don't want to be a drunk mom.

Life isn't the same, it's different.

My dad is sober now and so is my fiancé

Often times I only refer to them as being sober...

What people don't know was that I had a problem.

If I'm being completely honest while I sat in AA meetings with my fiancé I truly felt like I was one of them.

I questioned though if I was because I chose to just stop and no one knew how bad my problem was.

I was an alcoholic.

It wasn't fun unless I was drinking or partying.

My fun has now changed into family outings and adventures.

I avoid bars.

Because how easy would it be for me to lean into that again.

Sober mom me is my saving grace.

If I could go back and tell myself a couple things it would be that those friends don't love you

Those stories aren't funny they're sad and that there are things to do that don't require drinking to have fun.