how I’ll starve myself before my wedding:

“I need to lose 30 lbs before my wedding” is what I used to think. I had so much pressure to look “better” on my wedding day, and it was eating me alive!

My first thought after getting engaged was “now I really need to stop eating”. I have been struggling with my weight for as long as I can remember. Having PCOS and hormone issues made it hard for me to lose weight. The side effects of PCOS made me feel depressed and insecure. I deal with body hair, hair loss, hormonal acne, and many more issues because of this.

For the first few months of my engagement, I struggled with anxiety due to this… what was supposed to be a beautiful wedding planning period, ended up being a stressor in my life.

After going to therapy, I realized it had to do with my weight anxiety. I had just “fixed” my eating disorder (so I thought) and getting engaged made me want to go back to starving myself.

Now, I am focusing on self esteem. I still workout 5-6 days a week, but I have a much better relationship with food. And the most important part is that I love myself no matter what!. I am not going to lie to you guys, when I first saw myself on a wedding dress all I could think about was how much prettier I would look if I was thinner. But I have now come to the conclusion that I will never look super thin, and that everyone has a different body type, and that as long as I’m healthy and happy, that’s all that matter!.

It was when I stopped wanting to look like others, that I saw my own beauty.

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