2nd pregnancy

I seriously panicked when I found out I was pregnant with our second baby..

Life was just getting easier. My first son was walking and starting to talk. My day to day life was manageable and I was starting to feel like myself again.

I got pregnant again when our first son was 14 months old. I took the test as a joke because my husband’s cousin had just found out she was pregnant. Irregular periods were normal for me (PCOS) and since I was still breastfeeding I thought there was no way I could be pregnant. Because I only had 1 cycle since my first pregnancy (23 months).

Only being a day late, when I saw the second line I could feel all of the color leave my face. I felt instantly ill. I ran out crying to my husband trying to figure out how to feel about our situation, and all he could say was, “I’m never going to financially recover from this..” 😂 lol

My first born was very needy as an infant. Many sleepless nights. No time to myself because just laying him down would result in screaming. I was struggling with post-partum depression to the point where I barely remember his first year. I feared this would all happen again, and feared I couldn’t handle 2 babies. I spent my whole pregnancy crying myself to sleep and praying to god to help me be a better mother. Prayed that he would give me strength and wisdom… I was on fire for god like I had never been before and started reading my bible. I got baptized and went to church more regularly. And God gave me a perfect pregnancy. And a beautiful baby boy. A baby who slept through the whole night. A baby who was so quiet, it’s rare to even hear a whine from him. A baby who smiled at one month old, who is so good natured, and just to be around him is to love him. Now he is 9 months old, and I can’t wait to have more children.

God blessed us with 2 perfect beautiful boys. He knows you. He knows what you need before you even ask. God’s timing is ALWAYS perfect. And I couldn’t thank him enough for all that he has blessed our family with.

Moral of the story, if you’re seeing this. Don’t worry about anything, pray about everything. Philippians 4:6-7

Praying for every mama out there! You got this ❤️

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